Ha! This popped up on my dash again! I need to keep growing my hair out.
It’s no surprise to those who have been following me in the last six months, that it’s been challenging. To be honest, it feels as if my life exploded in my face and I’m still trying to pick up the pieces. Nothing worthwhile ever comes easy. I have faith, there will be a day when I’m not having a panic attack and it will be soon.
It’s just… I watched so many awful things happen to the ones I love the most in this world, there’s no point in resisting but being apart of that does change you. What it comes down to is a choice:
Will you allow the circumstances in your life change you for the worse or the better?
There are times of struggle but what life doesn’t consist of that? Hell, I watched my now deceased father almost burn down my childhood home because his mind slipped away so quickly from dementia. I found him mid seizure and had to rush him to the hospital… only for him to forget who I was weeks later and then pass away.
So, I’ve changed some but I don’t see that as a bad thing. At the moment, I’m working to fit this puzzle together and make sense of it all. I’ll keep everyone updated about my cam schedule (on Twitter) since it’s been erratic lately. Some days are harder than others but what helps is keeping my determination to live a life that’s a piece of art, one that evokes intense emotion on every level. I’ve gone through hell and back, many things I won’t talk about online. Sure, there might be ablaze surrounding me at times but nothing stops me from dancing with fire…
and yes, I love to dance with *fire.
*one of my blurry fire poi photos from a couple of years back (above)
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